Monday, September 27, 2010

Hidup yang dibatasi waktu


Bismillah
IIUM Library, 28 Sept 2010, 10.21 am.
Final exam dah nak dekat. Tak sampai sebulan je lg. Umm… Tak pyh pikir pasal final la dulu, minggu depan sndri pon dah ada test criminal. Tu yg patut risau. Dan waktu ni, saya rasa, saya masih sgt tak bersedia nak menghadapi final sekali lagi. Dengan segala effort, segala sakit kepala , stress, dan sebagainya, saya dah ragu untuk dapat result yang macam sebelum ni. Kemalasan  tahap nak mati dan kesibukan membatasi masa saya tuk buat revision tuk semua subjek. 

Criminal is on da way to the right track, Constitutional dah memang ketinggalan n lost track kemana tah, family macam ok ok jer, usul fiqh macam tah. But for usul fiqh I have my own strategy tuk dapat cemerlang. Haha. insyaallah. N succession, masih perlu tuk hafal formula yang bukan sedikit.
 Dan by the end of next week, saya harap tekanan luar macam program, assignment, presentation, goin to the end. nak stat revise betul2 macam revise last sem, need a damn strength. Batasan2 yang buat kita tak dapat kejar apa yang kita nak hanyalah waktu. Sebab kalu waktu tu kita dapat panjangkan, ntahla, mungkin lebih byk benda yang dapat kita accomplish. But then, bukan ke makin byk yang kita dapat, makin kita tamak dan makin kita rasa tak cukup?? Tu lah manusia, itulah kita dan itulah saya. Sebanyak mana pun kita mengeluh, masa takkan pernah berhenti.
 At this moment, saya sgt rindu life saya semasa di Jogjakarta. Saya tak perlu achive n put any effort. Tu lah perasaan apabila kita masuk universiti, masuk kelas tapi kita tak yah bagi komitmen dan tak yah wat assignment n tak yah study dan risau pasal result. 
p/s : Dan encik, jgn convest buat kamu lost track macam saya ni.aku yg tak convest ni pun dah nak gila kejar semua pelajaran. all da best for da convest. may allah bless.
Live strong

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Kena Sound

Bismillah

Library. 23 Sept. 10.45 pm

Just a quickie.

Jap g kul 11 ada kelas usul fiqh. n just now,sy sgt marah skg. baru kena sound dengan mahallah office sebab anta report yang memburukkan office. haiyoh. at the first place rasa cam tak patut kan, tapi mmg salah dorg n sy sendiri tak tau nak jwb camne lg.

the story was like this, time program bubur lambuk, bubur lambuk tak cukup sebab org office stad n s-dev byk trun amek bubur lambuk distribute kat office dorg. n saya pun macm sgt marah sebab tu suma duit program yang ianya adalah duit student. byk lagi student yg tak dapat bubur lambuk on that day. sebab byk officcer yang amek bubur  tu. n macam tu jugak lah yg saya tulis dalam repot n dorg cakap saya dah burukkan office. it was the truth  la kan. mmg dorg tak patut amek byk2. haiyoh.nak jwb pe ni.??? i am doin right thing right???

haish.....

Saturday, September 18, 2010

I hate this time

 Bismillah

Desa Rishah. 11.22 pm. 18 Sept


You can kiss your family and friends good-bye and put miles between you, but at the same time you carry them with you in your heart, your mind, your stomach, because you do not just live in a world but a world lives in you. 
-Frederick Buechner 



i really hate the time when all the fun is over.

p/s : tak nak balik, tak nak balik n tak nak balik

Monday, September 13, 2010

Warna Aidilfitri Kami

Bismillah

Desa Rishah .3.14 pm. 14 September.

1 Syawal dah 3 hari berlalu dan alhamdulillah, Syawal tahun ni, saya sambut dengan family. meriah sekali walaupun tak macam tahun2 lepas. sebab apa pun saya tak tau, tapi saya tak berapa nak enjoy. tapi buat adik2 saya, dorg sgt lah enjoy just like i was at their time. Nevertheless, aldilfitri kali ni, tetap menambah warna dalam kehidupan saya. Alhamdulllah, dan terima kasih atas anugerah sebuah keluarga yang bahagia ni.


p/s : By the way, im still in the mood of cuti. buku criminal tu, sikit pon tak sentuh lagi.haha

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Wednesday, September 8, 2010

mungkin ramadhan terakhir kita

Bismillah

Desa Rishah. 9 September, day after my birthday. 1.45 pm

In few hours, saya akan berangkat balik kampung ngan family. pufh. penat ni nak drive jauh lagi sekali. haish. sebab keta waja abah dah tak muat sumbat kami adik beradik, terpaksa saya drive my kancil. hoho. yes. this may be ramadhan yang terakhir buat saya atau buat kita semua. im not sayaing that we r gonna die in few days... its just the quotation taht our life is short than what we expected. dan saya mengharapan ramadhan ni, amalan amalan saya diterima n alhamdulillah, my goal tuk khatamkan quran tertunai jugak. violah. dah bertahun saya berusaha habiskan quran dalam bulan ramadhan, baru ramadhan kali ni saya berjaya. alhamdulillah.

memungkinkan bahawa ini adalah yang terakhir buat saya n maybe buat kita semua, saya mengharapkan ramadhan kali dapat jadikan saya berubah manusia yang lebih baik. kalu baik sikit dari pagi tadi pon it is good enough. haha.since my birthday was yesterday, ada sedikit terdetik dalam hati nak berubah menjadi 'sesuatu' manusia yang lebih baik di mata org lain. haha. i never change anyway but i relly hope so.

n esok adalah aidilfitri, it is typical to say selamat hari raya n maaf zahir batin.haha. kawan kawan, sahabat sahabat, saya banyak silap, saya banyak salah dan saya banyak dosa. maafkanlah naa.. saya manusia biasa yang tak punya apa2 kelebihan dari korg walau sekelumit pun. kita sama, sebagai seorg hamba Allah yang ingin bertaqwa.
  Ketika hati ini pernah berburuk sangka,
ketika lidah ini berkata dan membuat luka,
dan ketika diri ini pernah berlaku jahat dan dosa,
aku mohon maaf sebesarnya,
semoga pintu maaf sentiasa terbuka.

Selamat Hari Raya. Moga diampun segala dosa.

Livestrong.

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Terima kasih awak.

Bismillah

Desa Rishah.My Birthday.2.14 pm.

Wandering for cake, tapi puasa la hari ni.


p/s :  thank you ncik sampai bila2. that's way too much. haha. thanks thanks thanks n thanks.

p/s 2 :  ain, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you,  thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, n thanks. cukup kan 21?? 

p/s 3 : b, dont ever to dare to think that way.

p/s 4 : dhue, a very dumb question ^_^.


p/s 5 : acap,i wont say thank you unless u say the word :p

p/s 6 : farahalina, u r late T_T.


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Sunday, September 5, 2010

We have faith. do we??

Bismillah...

10.48 am. Desa Rishah.6th September.

Saya baru terbaca forwarded message dari indox gmail saya n id like to share with dengan korang semua. this is a typical conversation though, when we talk about belief, god etc. but it reminds us balik to keep on your faith no matter what. happy ramadhan kepada anda semua and maybe, Selamat hari raya.

Prof:
So you believe in God?

Student:
Absolutely, sir.

Prof:
Is God good?

Student:
Sure.

Prof:
Is God all-powerful?

Student:
Yes..

Prof:
My brother died of cancer even though he prayed to God to heal him.
Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill.
But God didn't. How is this God good then? Hmm?
(Student is silent.)

Prof:
You can't answer, can you?
Let's start again, young fella.
Is God good?

Student:
Yes.

Prof:
Is Satan good?

Student:
No.

Prof:
Where does Satan come from?

Student:
From....God. ..

Prof:
That's right.
Tell me son, is there evil in this world?

Student:
Yes.

Prof:
Evil is everywhere, isn't it?
And God did make everything, Correct?

Student:
Yes.

Prof:
So who created evil?
(Student does not answer.)

Prof:
Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness?
All these terrible things exist in the world, don't they?

Student:
Yes, sir.

Prof:
So, who created them?
(Student has no answer.)

Prof:
Science says you have 5 senses you use to identify and observe the world around you.
Tell me, son...Have you ever seen God?

Student:
No, sir.

Prof:
Tell us if you have ever heard your God?

Student:
No, sir.

Prof:
Have you ever felt your God, tasted your God, smelt your God?
Have you ever had any sensory perception of God for that matter?

Student:
No, sir. I'm afraid I haven't.

Prof:
Yet you still believe in Him?

Student:
Yes.

Prof:
According to empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your 'GOD' doesn't exist.
What do you say to that, son?

Student:
Nothing. I only have my faith.

Prof:
Yes, Faith. And that is the problem science has.

Student:
Professor, is there such a thing as heat?

Prof:
Yes.

Student:
And is there such a thing as cold?

Prof:
Yes.

Student:
No sir. There isn't.
(The lecture theatre becomes very quiet with this turn of events.)

Student:
Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat..
But we don't have anything called cold.
We can hit 458 degrees below zero which is no heat, but we can't
go any further after that.
There is no such thing as cold.
Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat.
We cannot measure cold.
Heat is energy.
Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it .
(There is pin-drop silence in the lecture theatre.)

Student:
What about darkness, Professor?
Is there such a thing as darkness?

Prof:
Yes. What is night if there isn't darkness?

Student :
You're wrong again, sir.
Darkness is the absence of something.
You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light....
But if you have no light constantly, you have nothing and it's called darkness, isn't it? In reality, darkness isn't.
If it were you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?

Prof:
So what is the point you are making, young man?

Student:
Sir, my point is your philosophical premise is flawed.

Prof:
Flawed? Can you explain how?

Student:
Sir, you are working on the premise of duality.
You argue there is life and then there is death, a good God and a bad God.
You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure.
Sir, science can't even explain a thought..
It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one.
To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing.
Death is not the opposite of life: just the absence of it.
Now tell me, Professor.
Do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?

Prof:
If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, yes, of course, I do.

Student:
Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?
(The Professor shakes his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument is going.)

Student:
Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a scientist but a preacher? (The class is in uproar.)

Student:
Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor's brain?
(The class breaks out into laughter.)

Student:
Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor's brain, felt it, touched or smelt it?
No one appears to have done so.
So, according to the established rules of empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, sir.
With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures, sir?
(The room is silent. The professor stares at the student, his face unfathomable. )

Prof:
I guess you'll have to take them on faith, son.

Student:
That is it sir... The link between man & god is FAITH.
That is all that keeps things moving & alive.
 
this a real true story dari seseorg yang anda tak perlu taw siapa. yang penting, saya nak kawan2 saya, n readers to read this and have the same feeling as i am now. iman saya mungkin tak kuat macam anda. maybe its good way though tuk remind diri saya, dan kita dari masa ke semasa. siapa kita, siapa tuhan kita dan tinggi mana level iman kita.. moga kita, dan saya sndiri dapat bykkan amal di akhir sisa2 ramadan ni. ameen.

*credit tu adibah ali for the forwarded message.

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Friday, September 3, 2010

It'll end in 3 hours

Bismillah...

Mahallah Bilal, 4 Sept. 2010. 25th ramadhan.8.00 am.

Saya sedang mengira waktu sebenarnya ni. hee.. gembira tak terkata sebab in 3 hours, ill be driving to ipoh. dah sebulan lebeyh weh tak balik. home sick sgt2... haha. nak raya lagi ka. bertambah2 rasa rindu n eager nak balik. semalam, masing2 dah menapak meninggalkan saya. ridhwan saleh  n mohd zam zam balik pagi. petang menghantar izzat ghazali. malam pulak pas terwih syed fadhil hanafi melangkah pergi. technically, im all alone, tapi syaufiq masih ada menemani saya dekat bilik ni. so realitinya, saya takde la keseorangan. skg pon tgh membuta lg dia. haha. so takde la takut sgt tido sorg2 dalam bilik... haha.. but then, walaupun eager giler nak balik, perasaan rasa berat bila berlalunya ramadhan kali ni. kenangan dengan kawan2, masak petang2, solat terawih sambil menyumpah imam setiap malam, kena tinggal dalam library tgh malam, tak dapat iftar ngan depury director sebab ramai fakir2 kulit hitam berebut makanan kami, haha, semua buat saya rindu pada ramadhan dan kawan2 dah separuh jalan rupanya kita dekat uia ni. cepat sgt...

tapi alhamdulillah... berlalunya ramadhan ni, membawa byk perubahan pada kita *insyaalah*.. dan kita bakal meraikan kemenangan puasa ni dalam 5 hari lagi. memang rasa rindu pada ramadhan, but we have to learn to let go. hahaha. takde kena mengena kan. whatever then. tu lah... its been a while saya tak hapdate benda alah ni. n skg dah takde idea nak tulis apa. mungkin ada beberapa kronologi peristiwa yang dapat saya share di bawah ni.

1st kronologi : Fakir2 di UIA yg dilaknat.

kami bertiga dah bersiap ala2 nak pergi majlis tunang dah pon. patutnya hari ada majlis buka puasa dengan deputy director  dekat foyer masjid. bagus la jugak sebab hari ni kitorg dapat makan free. dah ala2 awal kitorg sampai . at the first place, mmg ada sit untuk kitorg. dah siap ada reserve bagai la kan. the tentative was like this. makan light iftar dalam masjid dulu, solat magrib n the proceed ke meja masing2 makan heavy iftar. kitorg pun masing2 masuk la masjid tinggal meja2 yg dah direserve tadi. then solat dan bila tiba time dinner, meja dah kena attack ngan foreigner. dorg siap berebut lagi sesama dorg. tak guna. masing2 dah menyumpah sebenarnya. saya apatah lagi. melaknat dorg seperti biasa. kitorg pun takleh nak watpe n lastly, end up makan dekat aisyah warung yang dekat sek teknik tu. siap berbaju melayu sampin bagai. haha. ada gambar patutnya, tapi tah mana saya letak tak igt. yg pntg, masing2 pulang dengan sumpah seranah tahap tak ingat dunia. rosak puasa hari tersebut. haha.

2nd kronologi : masak

ni kenangan yang paling saya igt tuk ranadan kali ni. masak dalam bilik. ni lah first time saya rasa buka puasa dengan penuh kepuasan. macam rumah rasanya. serius. satu bilik dah plan nak masak sama2 dan yang bagusnya, sedap jugak syed masak. Ni baru ada gambar ni.



 hehehe.. love the masak.;p

3rd kronologi : shopping

Huhu. Ni lah belanja saya yang paling gila setakat ni. bila saya kira2 balik, maw dekat rm 400 jugak menyopping baju raya tahun ni. hampeh kan. Dengan ditemani shopping advisor yang tak berapa nak membantu, iaitu ridhwan, syed n syaufiq  , mmg hancus duit poket saya.haha. yang penting disini, ada ridhwan cakap  

“ ko Daniel dah berubah ek sejak balik jogja ni. ko dah jadi sakan shopping sampai kalah aku. Dulu ko bukan main kedekut lagi nak spend duit kat benda alah ni i.e shoping. Skg, pantang ada free sikit, wangsa walk, parkson, jaya jusco. N tak sah kalu tak masuk padini authrntic n romp.”

Haha mmg, mmg saya skg dah tk macam dulu. Pantang lepa sikit, takde kelas petang ke, trus cabut ke JJ. Tambah pulak dah ada keta ni kan. Haha. makin galak la. But then, saya masih under budget sebenarnya. Tak melampau lah. *penipu daniel*. Hehe. Feeling yang paling saya tak suka sekali time shopping nie adalah time dekat counter. Time nak hulur duit kat cashier tu. Hoho. Masa tu la baru terfikir “betul ka aku beli ni?” haha…

Whatever it is, I love doing this shopping.  Sebab ini dah menambah memori saya tuk Ramadan kali ni. ;p

p/s : ill be drivin in 3 hours. semoga selamat perjalanan nanti. n dunt worry izzat ghazali. u have my words. ;)


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